Have you ever taken a glimpse back at who you used to be? I mean really looked at that version of yourself—the one who struggled, doubted, and questioned everything about who you were and where you were headed?
I did that today. And when I let her, that old version of me, come forward for the first time in a long time, something extraordinary happened: she got to see me. She got to see who I’ve become.
It was emotional. It was raw. It was deeply, beautifully true.
See the video I posted about it on Instagram here!
This realization hit me as I was getting ready for lunch, and a familiar song—Where I Stood by Missy Higgins—came on. I hadn’t heard it in five maybe ten years, but the moment those lyrics played, I was transported back to a version of myself from five, maybe ten years ago.
The lyric, “Cause I don’t know who I am, who I am without you. All I know is that I should...” used to define me. Back then, I was in a constant battle, trying so hard to live my truth but having no idea how to actually get there. I felt lost, stuck in a space where I knew who I wanted to be but couldn’t figure out the steps to become her. I couldn't find the link, the connection and in all honesty I was completely lost within myself in search of what made me special. I didn’t know who I was without someone else validating me.
But today? Today, something incredible happened.
As I listened to that song, it felt like the past version of me was watching. She saw who I am now, and it was like waiting 100 years for rain—and today, that rain finally came. It poured down on me, reviving the parts of me that had been cracked and dry for so long and bringing life back to the loss I felt so deeply. That girl who didn’t know her worth, who didn’t know how to step fully into her power, who cried to this very song, was now witnessing the transformation.
The drought is over. I stand here now, fully alive in my truth, in the power I never thought I’d find. The woman I used to be has made way for the woman I’ve become—stronger, braver, more powerful than I ever dreamed possible.
It’s not often we pause to truly see how far we’ve come, to celebrate the steps we’ve taken, and today, I got that chance. I got to look back at who I was. And just like in the end of (one of my favorite movies) Practical Magic, when they broke the curse and healed the past, I feel like that happened to me. Something deep within me healed today, and I know this freedom, this knowledge, has truly fucking changed me for the better.
I know who I am. It took me 40+ years to say that, and I am standing in my power, using my magic, shining my light. That is the biggest blessing of all.
But the beauty of this experience doesn’t end with me, through my coaching, I want to help women reach this moment, where the past and present meet, and they finally get to witness their own transformation. It’s a powerful moment, a moment that changes you forever. It allows you to heal those old wounds, to release the fear that has held you back, and to stand fully in the truth of who you are.
So many of us carry around the weight of our past—the doubts, the fears, the old wounds we’ve never allowed ourselves to heal. We don’t often take the time to pause, reflect, and truly acknowledge how far we’ve come. But when we do—when we give ourselves the grace and space to look back and see how much we’ve grown—that’s when the transformation happens. That’s when we step into our power, fully and unapologetically.
I now that I have felt and seen firsthand how transformative this experience is, and I want every woman to feel that same rush of empowerment, that same wave of freedom that comes from finally knowing who you are. It’s time to let go of the old stories, the old doubts, and step into the rain that will revive your soul.
Just like in Wicked, when Elphaba sings, "Because I knew you, I have been changed for good," I, too, have been changed—for the better, and forever. This transformation isn’t just about who I was, but who I am now and who I will continue to become.
You deserve to stand in your power. You deserve to see how far you’ve come. And you deserve to shine your light in the way only you can.
The rain will come for you, too. Trust the journey, honor your growth, and let yourself be reborn.
Stay strong, stay fierce, and know that your transformation is closer than you think.
Much love,
Katie
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